没有你上网的日子，第46天，晴：

啊！啊！啊！烦躁的一天，失败的一天……

是我的经验不够吗？是我的磨炼不够吗？还是我天分不够呢？我每次画Figure Gesture都画得很难看，并不是我的要求高，而是那些gesture真的很难看！我每一时刻都在提醒自己一定要将Gesture练好来，因为一旦到了数码动画的领域，假如Gesture无法画好来，最后被淘汰的是我自己！这个领域的竞争强大，唯有让自己成为最优秀的、最前端的、最刻苦耐劳的，才能是最成功的那位！唉……最让自己烦躁的，还是朋友的话。他们都劝说我应该选择广告设计系，因为我在这一方面有天生的天分、有口才、有Marketing的眼光……其实，我曾经也徘徊过，可是，我听过Tatsun Hui说过，“选你所爱”，所以我还是选择了动画系。就算我现在的实力还差一大载，但我相信只要努力就一定行的！

今天的History II真的让我失望透了！第一就是Presentation的Concept又再一次被推了……难道我们想的就是那么地“肤浅”吗？“肤浅”又该要如何定义呢？是表面的吗？就因为“Minimal”和“Simple”，我们想了又想……每当有一个概念的时候，又会被告知“肤浅”，那到底要如何才算是“深”呢？“简单”真的是那么的“不简单”吗……？再来就是，原来我们的Presentation分开来举行了。没有四班在一起，也就是说我又少了一个机会看到她。讲师说我们可以去观看，但，我相信我本身也有那份勇气才敢过去看。希望到时的我有机会去看吧！

嗯……致各位亲爱的读者，其实我有一个问题一直想问问大家，也希望你们能够给予回复，让我知道你们的看法。我的部落格都是文字，写的都是自己本身的东西，到底有没有闷到你们呢？有朋友告诉我我的部落格不会有人来看的，而且写的东西不是肉麻就是无聊透顶的生活琐事，那你们呢？到底有多少的人每一天都会上来读文章？到底有多少人觉得我的部落格是无聊的？到底有多少人觉得我的部落格是肉麻的？到底有多少人觉得我的部落格不应该以目前的方式来继续的……？

Day Without You Online, Day 46, Sunny:

Ah! Ah! Ah! A frustrating day, with failure...

Am I lack of experience? Am I not enough of practice? Or I lack of talent? My figure gestures are very ugly every time I draw it, and it really do! I always remind myself that I must practice well my gesture, as once I stepped into the world of Digital Animation, I will face a lot of competitors, and I will be eliminated if I am the weak one! This is a very competitive domain, and to be the outstanding one, you must equip yourself to be the best and the most advance. Haiz... Well, what my friends said to me is the one frustrated me the most. They advise me to choose Advertising Design, as I have my talent, eloquence, and the sight of marketing in this domain... Well, I used to be dilemma before, but our principal, Tatsun Hui told us before, "Choose what you like", and my preferable one is Digital Animation. Although I still very weak now, but I believe myself that I can!

Today's History II class really disappointed me! Firstly, our concept had been rejected, once again... Are we thinking too superficial? What is the standard to measure "superficial"? Is it surface? Just because of "Minimal" and "Simple", we think over and over again... Whenever we have our idea and concept, we will be told that it is "superficial", then how to counted as "abstruse"? Is it "simple" not simple at all...? Besides that, today lecturer told us that our presentation have been separated into two parts. Without four classes together, that's mean I lost one more chance to see her. Although we can go and have a watch, but, I believe that I don't have the courage to go. Hopefully I have the chance to go!

Hmm... Dear all my readers, actually I have a question to ask all of you, and hopefully you all can give the respond so that I can know what you all thinking. Is my blog boring, as it is full of letters and everything in the contents are about myself? My friend told me that nobody will come and read my blog, and everything I write are boring stuffs besides the disgusting things, how bout you all? How many readers exactly come to read my blog everyday? How many readers feel my blog is boring? How many readers feel my blog is disgusting? How many think my blog shouldn't continue in current way...?

没有你上网的日子，第45天，晴：

今天的我有点特别，特别不在于我本身，而是写部落格的状态……都不知这栋建筑物怎么搞的，时不时会没有水……就好像今晚的水已经制了好几个小时却还没恢复！通常我都是冲了凉，然后就开始我的部落格，因为身体刚冲洗后，写部落格的时候，状态也会好点。没错！我现在都还没洗澡……气啊！！！

嗯……今天的Drawing Class差点把我吓到了。Lecturer告诉我们，我们的班将会和第一班一起去Field Trip。我顿时感到失望，我还以为没有的和你的班一起去了。就在失望之际，突然Wayne和我说了一项好消息！原来，我们是和第一班同一辆巴士，而Field Trip是四班一起去的。^.^还好哦！不过哦，第一班是“香蕉”班，和我们“纯种”班在一起，加上我们两班都是“吱喳”班，到时候的巴士恐怕会被我们的吵闹声闹翻了……！哈哈！

Day Without You Online, Day 45, Sunny:

Today I'm quite special, not on myself, but the condition of writing the blog... I just wonder what's happening to this building which I stay, the water supply will be disconnected once in a while... The water had stopped for several hours for today and still the same until now! I usually have my bath first then only I will start my blog, as body will be refreshed and feel better when I write my blog. Exactly! I still haven't bath yet...

Hmm... Today Drawing Class really shocked me. Lecturer told us that our class will go to the field trip with the first class. I was disappointed when I heard that, and I thought I can't go with you for the trip. Just at the right of time, Wayne told me a good news! We are same bus with first class, and yet all of the classes, which are four classes will go to the trip together! ^.^ Luckily...! However, first class is "banana" class, and our class is "pure" class, moreover, both of the class are very talkative class, I think that time our voice could make the bus crashes by the way...! Haha!

没有你上网的日子，第44天，雨：

其实今天也不懂该算是“雨”还是“晴”，因为两个都夹杂着在一起……就好像人的心情一样，有的时候会漂浮不定……

今天很轻松。昨晚和朋友聊天聊通宵，聊到今天早上7点才睡觉。呵呵！醒来吃过午餐后又和朋友玩电脑游戏，日子可多么的轻松呢！不过，轻松的背后，就是对没有做功课所带来的压力了……呵呵！

仪，好多天没写到你了呢！嗯……我很期待下个星期的到来，因为那个时候我们又有机会见面了！:-)Drawing Class的Field Trip、Figure Class的Sunway Lagoon Live Drawing、还有就是History II的Presentation。我很期待那几天，而且也很久没有看到你了……已经第44天了，你还会上网吗……？

有朋友问过我，The One的功课那么多，我是否有后悔过来The One吗？我的答案是没有！一点也没有！我在这里的日子很开心，也学到很多的东西，最主要的，还是让我遇见了你！就基于这一点，我觉得我进The One是一个百分之百争取的选择！

还有一点，我要谢谢一位和我幼儿园就认识到中五的朋友，JJ。他每一天都很支持我的部落格，而且还对于我的翻译给了很多的意见。谢谢你哦！我知道我的英文不好，但我一定会将他改好来的。对了！有人曾经问过我，我的英文翻译是自己翻的吗？其实从我的文法来看，不难猜出那些的确是我亲身翻译的。我不靠任何的翻译器，最多只用了网上词典来找字。我之所以这样做，是因为这个部落格原该就是英文的，因为“她”不会中文。我之所以放上英文，是因为我相信有朝一日当她发现到这个部落格的时候，她会明白我所写的一切！这就是我的坚持，坚持亲身翻译，坚持每一次的帖都要翻译！虽然翻译不好，也恳请大家多多支持哦！:-)

Day Without You Online, Day 44, Rainy:

Actually what is the weather condition for today, I myself also no idea, as both of it mix together... Just like men's feeling, always change....

Today is an easy day. I had my talk with my friends the whole night until today 7 morning only sleep. Hehe! After having lunch, I played computer games with friends! Really enjoy! However, behind the relaxation is the pressure from assignments... Hehe!

Yee, quite a number of days I didn't write on you! Hmm... I very anticipate for next week, as we have the chance to meet again! :-) Drawing class's field trip, figure class's Sunway Lagoon Live Drawing, and the History II presentation. I can't wait for days, plus there's been a time that I didn't met with you... Is day 44 now, do you still online...?

My friends did ask me before, The One full with assignments, did I every regret for coming to here? My answer is no! Totally no! I very enjoy the life over here, and I learn lots of things too. The most importantly is, I met with you here! Because of that, I believed that my joining to The One is a 100% correct decision!

In addition, I want to thank a friend who I knew him since kindergarten until form 5, JJ. He supports my blog everyday, and do give some opinions on my English translation. Thanks, pal! I know my English is bad, but I will fix it. Oh ya! There were some questions came to me, did I translate all the articles myself? Based on my sentence structures and grammar can easily tell you guys that all the articles I really translate it myself. I'm not using any translation machine, the most I used was the online dictionary to help me on my vocab, in fact, this blog should be English at the beginning. Just because of she couldn't read Chinese, thus I added the English translation. I do believe that one day she will know my blog and understand everything I wrote! This is my persist, and I want to make all the translation myself, on every threads! Although the translation are bad, but hopefully you guys will continue support it! :-)

没有你上网的日子，第43天，雨：

今天，我想和大家分享一个故事，一个让我印象深刻的故事……

话说在2006年里，有一位男孩他已经上了中五，也就是中学生涯的最后一年。陪伴这位男孩的同窗，当然也多不胜数，其中有的是他最要好的朋友。他们是知己，而且经过了六年的考验，然后联系彼此的可是多么珍贵的友谊啊！就在2004年开始，网上开始流行部落格。每一个人为了跟随这个潮流，也纷纷地开通了自己的部落格。当然，那男孩也不例外。他的第一个部落格是在交友网络，Friendster里的部落格。当时的他，很高兴拥有了部落格，而且还在那个部落格里放了不少有趣的东西，夹杂着和他的好朋友的欢乐时光。直到了2006年，这位男孩在Blogspot里开了另外一个部落格。这个时候，他将部落格当成是他的心灵寄托。他放上了他自己创作的歌曲，然后记录了生活上的点点滴滴。

最后一年的中学生涯每一个人都很珍惜。谁知，男孩的好知己竟然作了一些让他觉得很难受的事情。男孩暗恋着一位女生，可男孩的知己却一次又一次骗了男孩和其他的男性朋友。如何骗法？有几次的派对，男孩知道暗恋的女生都有出席，可是男孩的知己却瞒着其他男性朋友包括他，不让他们参加。男孩知道后，便将这些东西都放在部落格上。谁知，写在部落格上的东西，换来的可是被其他女性朋友谩骂的下场。起初的男孩不以为然，因为他深信部落格是用来抒发自己内心世界的一个小站。就在同年的最后一天，当大家都准备迎接新年的时候，男孩和其他的朋友再一次不被邀请参加。但是他们已经看开，所以他们便驾车到一些地方自个儿庆祝。男孩的知己呢？当然就是和同年的女生一起庆祝咯！当然，那个时候大家都毕了业……但是男孩知己的低在其他同性朋友的眼里已经“花”了……

在2007年的第一天，男孩在其部落格上将前一天晚上的东西都写上来。但是，他那一天的文章，想不到却开始改变了他、改变了他对部落格的看法。当他在放上那一天的文章后，他受到了不少朋友的攻击。这个攻击维持了一个星期，直到在他新的生活（男孩就要去开始他的学院生涯）的前几天，他还是一样被攻击。在种种的压力下，男孩将部落格的文章都换上了同一个内容，那就是“没话好说……再见！”男孩甚至在其最后一个帖子里放上了关闭部落格的通告，从此不再对部落格有任何的执着……男孩对这一件事一直耿耿于怀，心里常想：部落格不是让人家写下自己的感受和生活的点滴的吗？但是，没有人给予他任何的答复……直到了他在学院里遇上了另一位女生……

男孩对这位女生很有好感，但是一直都没有认识她的机会。男孩将这个事情告诉了身边的一些朋友，但他们都不以为意。直到了2007年的6月，男孩终于有机会认识了这位女生。他开始了和这位女生的第一次MSN。谁知，就因为一时冲动，男孩将他和女生的关系搞僵了。男孩很后悔，而且每一个晚上都很期待女生的上网，因为他很想和女生聊天。但是，他的等待是漫漫长夜的，无限的……就这样，男孩开始了他2007年里的第一个部落格。男孩一直和身边的朋友分享他的事情，其中，他有一位很好的兄弟很支持他，而且还帮了男孩不少。男孩对这他这位兄弟心里一直存在无限的感激，但他不懂要如何报答他……就因为这位兄弟的恩，每当有人在男孩的面前说关于这位兄弟的事情的时候，男孩都会躲开话题，不想做人任何对这位兄弟有伤害的事情……

就在2007年7月的某一天里，男孩在中学的知己告诉了他一些东西。起初，一听后，男孩感觉十分高兴。那些东西都是男孩一直梦寐以求的，自然而然地，男孩的心一直都是开着的。但是，高兴的背后，当一切都冷静下来后，男孩开始胡思乱想了。他在想，怎么这么好的东西会突然降临，然后他开始怀疑知己所说的都是假的。他认为那些东西都是知己自己编出来的，但是他不追问。他教唆自己要保持平常心，而且也将这些事情写在部落格上，谁知，这么一写却开始考验了这位男孩……

在男孩写上了部落格后，他在学院的好兄弟看到了。不巧的是，这位好兄弟也告诉了男孩一些让男孩很高兴的东西。就这样，好兄弟误会了男孩，还生了男孩的气。男孩很无奈，可是他却没有解释的机会。一直到了2007年7月28号晚上……

男孩心里一直在想，到底写部落格的用意是什么？是抒发感情？是记录生活点滴？还是得罪朋友？男孩开始迷惑，他一直都不懂，为什么他写了三次的部落格，有两次都是得罪朋友的……难道这是注定的吗……？男孩不懂……

男孩的三个部落格：
http://art_creator.blogs.friendster.com/blog/
http://artcreator89.blogspot.com
http://waiting4u2on9.blogspot.com

大家对这个故事有什么看法呢？写部落格到底又是为了什么呢？无可否认，我写部落格的用意是要让“她”知道我在等她，你们呢？

Day Without You Online, Day 43, Rainy:

Today, I want to share a story with all of you, a story that give me a deep impression...

In year 2006, there was a boy who studied form 5, which last year of his secondary school. There were a lot of friends accompanied the boy which included his best friend. They were very close friend, and the difficulties of six years and the relationship was very precious! In the meantime, blog was started to be one of the trend in year 2004. Everyone was creating their own blog. The boy did the same too. His first blog was created using the blog system in Friendster. He was very happy after he created the blog and placed lots of interesting stuffs into the blog, mixing the happy hour he spent with his friends. Until 2006, the boy had created another blog in Blogspot. At this time, the blog was the boy's mind reposing place. He attached his own composed song, and recorded down every details of his life.

Everybody was very treasured their last year of secondary school's life. Who knows, the boy's best friend did something that the boy was hard to be accepted. The boy was having an unrequited loves to a girl, however, the boy's best friend did make a lie to the boy again and again. How was the lie? There was several parties held, and the boy knew the girl was there, but the boy's best friend hided the parties from all the male's friend included the boy, not to let them took part. The boy knew everything, and he written down everything on the blog. Who knows, everything written down came with the scolding of other female's friends. The boy was not bother at the beginning, in fact he believed that blog was a stop that let express his own feeling and world. On the last day of the same year, when everybody was getting ready to celebrate new year, the boy and his friends were not invited to the part. However, they were not concerned with that, thus they drove to a particular place to celebrate themselves. How about the boy's friend? Of course he celebrated with other female friends! In addition, all of them were graduated, but the boy's best friend had left a bad impression to the other male friends...

On the first day of 2007. the boy written down everything happened during the previous day. However, the blog that he written that day had changed the boy, and his point of view about blog. When he posted up the blog, he was attacked by several friends. This action had continued for one week, until the several day before his new life came to him (the life which the boy was going to study), the attack still didn't stop. The boy decided to change every contents on his blog into "Nothing to be said... Bye!" under the pressure. He even posted the blog closing notice on his last thread of the blog, and didn't concern about blog anymore... The boy was very take to his heart, and always think: Blog is to let people written their feeling and the life, is it? Anyway, no one could answer him... Until the boy met another girl in his college...

The boy was having a favourable impression to the girl, but he did not have any chances to know her. The boy told this thing to his friends, but they didn't bother about it. Until the June of 2007, the boy finally knew the girl. He started his first MSN with the girl. Who knows, just because of impulsion, the boy had made the relationship became stiff. The boy was very regret, and anticipated the girl to online every night, as he wanted to chat with the girl. However, his wait was endless... Following by that, the boy started his 2007 first blog. The boy always share his stuffs with his friends, among all that, there was a very good pal who supported him, and helped him a lot. The boy felt thankful to the best pal always, but he couldn't make any repayment to the pal... Just because of the graciousness, whenever there was the talk of his best pal, the boy will hide from the topic, just not to do anything that harm his pal and their relationship...

On one of the day in July of 2007, the boy's best friend during the secondary school told him something. At the beginning, the boy was very happy for what his best friend told him. Those were the things that the boy always prefer, and naturally, the boy was very delighted. However, behind of the happiness, when everything was calmed, the boy started to think. He was thinking, impossible a good thing suddenly approached, and started to be curious for what his best friend told. He thought that that everything was created by his best friend own self, but he didn't ask for more. He pursued himself to be peace of mind, and written everything on his blog, who knows, the blog was started to test the boy...

After the boy posted up the blog, his best pal in college saw the thread. At the same time, the best pal too tell him something that delightful the boy. And thus, the best pal was misunderstood the boy, and angry with him. The boy didn't know what to do, and didn't have the chance to explain everything. Until 28th night of July, 2007...

The boy keep thinking, what is the purpose of having a blog? Is an expression? Or record every details of life? Or offend the friends? The boy confuses, and he can't make himself understand, why he has written the blog for 3 times, but tho of them are offending his friends... Is this is doomed...? The boy doesn't know...

The boy's three blogs:
http://art_creator.blogs.friendster.com/blog/
http://artcreator89.blogspot.com
http://waiting4u2on9.blogspot.com

Ladies and gentlemen, what you think about the story? What is the purpose of writing a blog? Does not have deny that I write the blog to let "her" knows that I'm waiting for her, how about you?

没有你上网的日子，第42天，晴：

嗯……今天的心情是怎样的呢？复杂？反复？平和？意乱？我不懂……

我有一位好友对我说了一些话。虽然那些话听起来的确是很令人兴奋，不过深入地想一想，我反而觉得那些话都是他自己造出来的……我不是故意要有这个思想，不过从他的句子，以及“花”了的案底，真的不得不让我觉得他那些话都是他自己编来的。再说，某个朋友的心情日子也证实了这一点……无论如何，我相信不要去在意以及保持平常心，那么就没什么问题了……但是，也让我对身边的人加倍的谨慎……

今天看了一部戏，叫做《冒牌天神 II》"Evan Almighty"。这部戏是延续了第一集的故事，只不过主角换了（第一集是Bruce Almighty）。想起当天在戏院里看到它的预告片的时候，我以为会是一部很搞笑的电影，谁知看了后却恰恰相反。

影片的搞笑程度不高，而且笑点很少，但是却多了温性以及感动的画面。故事是述说在第一集离被Jim Carry恶整的新闻播报员，Evan在这一集里成功当上了国会议员。不过他那立誓要“改变世界”的决定在第一天上班就被打下来了。就在那一天的晚上，他也衷心地向上帝祷告，希望能够成功改变世界。无论如何，上帝却给了他一个难题，那就是要建立一座“诺亚方舟”……到底上帝为何会如此呢？就让大家慢慢去看吧！这里我主要要提起的是关于这部片子的意义。上帝在Evan的家人离开他后，对其家人说了一句话，而且是很深奥且值得大家深思的一句话：“我来问你，一个人向我祷告说他要财富，你觉得我会直接给他金钱呢还是给他财富上的难题来解决；一个人向我祷告说他要变勇敢，你觉得我会直接给他胆量呢还是考量胆量的难关；一个人向我说他要家庭的温馨，你觉得我会直接给他爱呢还是亲人间关系的考验？”就是这三个问题，让我了解到一样重要的东西，那就是每一个难关都是上帝给你的“财富”！他可以是有形的，也可以是无形的。只要你通过了那些考验，你就会得到那些“财富”，然后长大！这几句话真的很有意思，而且也一直让我耿于这些句子……还有一点，这部戏主要所说的是“家庭”，而不是所谓的“诺亚方舟”。还有就是，“诺亚方舟”里的洪水真的是上天的惩罚吗？大家又有否知道“方舟”"ARK"有着什么意思吗？你可以直接去找这部戏来看，或期待我明天的答案吧！（有几幕的戏让我流眼泪……）

今天所说的咚咚还蛮多的咯！对了，今天有个小插曲，那就是Gam Fatt的车钥匙不见了。还好最后被Wayne检到然后交给了Cheong Kwee，要不然后果真的很不堪设想……谢谢你们哦！

就酱！在此停笔咯！呵呵！:-)

Day Without You Online, Day 42, Sunny:

Hmm... What's my mood for today? Complicated? Relapse? Gentle? Chaos? No idea...

One of my good friend told me something. Although the sentences were nice to be listened, instead there were more likely created by himself after several thought... I didn't mean to have this kind of thought, but from what he said and the not very good records, really make me think that all the sentences were did by his own. Moreover, one of the friends' blog had proven this... Anyway, I believe that as long as I don't bother it and have the mind of peace, then everything will be alright... However, I started to be more caution to my surrounded friends...

Today I watched a movie entitled "Evan Almighty". This is the second episode of "Bruce Almighty", which acted by Jim Carry. When the first time I watched the trailer in the cinema, I thought it would be a comedy, who knows is exactly not the same as what I thought.

The movie doesn't have lots of funny and humor stuff, however, it has added the warming and touching scenes. The story is about the TV News Reporter, who wickedly did by Jim Carry in previous episode, Evan has become a congressman. He used his slogan "Change The World" as he motto, however, his will had been pulled down on his first working day. During the night, he pray to the god sincerely, and hopefully he really could change the world. However, the God had given him a big and difficult problem, build a "Noah Ark"... Why the God did so? Then you guys should have a watch on it! The purpose I talk about this movie is want to let you guys know about the meaning and moral of the movie. The God had give some talk to Evan's family member after they left the house, and the sentences really meaningful and should be thought deeply by all of us. The God said," Let me ask something, a man prayed to me said he wanted to become wealthy, do you think I will give him gold and money straight away or some financial problems that need to be settled; a person prayed to me said he wants to become a brave man , do you think I will directly give him a gallbladder or some challenging stuffs to train him; a guy wished to have a warm family, do you think I will give him warm and love or some testing on family's relationship? "Just because of these three questions, I learned something, that's every challenges and difficulties are the properties given by God. It can be in shape of shapeless. As long as you passed the hardship, then you gain the wealth, and grow up next! These are really meaningful sentences, and takes to my heart, always... In addition, this movie is emphasizing on "family", but not the "Noah Ark". Furthermore, did "Noah Ark"'s flood really the punishment from God? In addition, do you guys know what is "ARK" really means? You can go and find this movie to watch and have the answer, or wait for my answer! (Some of scene flows my tears...)

Today quite a lot of things I written! Oh ya, today has a small interlude. Gam Fatt nearly lost his car's key. Luckily at the end Wayne found it and passed to Cheong Kwee, or the circumstances really terrible... Thanks guys!

That's all! Stop at here! Hehe! :-)

没有你上网的日子，第41天，雨：

哈！连续几天都下雨哦！难道老天爷这几天都不开心在流泪吗……？:-)

嗯……今天的心情蛮好的！刚刚和Andy废了不少。那个废材还真有点桃花呢！我一直都在费解到底为什么桃花会长在他身上呢？哈哈！有的时候，在家里闷闷的时候，或被功课压得喘不过气来的时候，找个人来“废”下也不错呢！有减压之功效哦！呵呵！

对了！今天竟然会和你有一面之缘呢！呵呵！那时我和几位朋友在“大囍事”享用着午餐，然后在和朋友的谈笑风生中，见到你和你的朋友经过店铺的面前。哈！我还真幸运呢！嗯……我想你应该是要去隔几间的“陈师傅”店吧！:-)

好啦！虽然今晚很得空，可是没什么话好说的！对了！很头痛Calligraphy & Letter form！我需要工具啊！！！

Day Without You Online, Day 41, Rainy:

Ha! Several days with rain! Is it our sky is sad with tears flowing down...? :-)

Hmm... Today my mood is nice! Just crapped with Andy. That silly guy really having some "palm" now! I quite curious why the palm tree will grow on his d? Haha! Sometimes, when feel bored at home, or the stressful assignments that doesn't allow you to breath, find a person to crap with is quite good! It helps to release tension! Hehe!

Oh ya! Today what a chance that let me saw you! Hehe! I was having my lunch with several friends at "Dai Hei Xi", and during the lunch, I saw you and your friends passed by the restaurant. Ha! So lucky I am! Hmm... I thought that you guys were going to "Chan Sifu" ba! :-)

Alright! Although I'm very free tonight, but got nothing to say! Oh ya! Headache with Letter form & Calligraphy! I need tools!!!

没有你上网的日子，第40天，雨：

唉……原本可以是轻松的一天，因为一些事情就让我整个人静了下来……

今晚的我其实蛮得空的。原本我也打算多说一些的，不过基于一些立场，所以我还是觉得放在心里里会比较好。“有些时候，有些东西，该说的话就说，不该说的话，说出来就只会让关系闹得更僵……”这个是我写了33篇的部落格后所理解到的东西。无论如何，有些东西，我始终还是觉得不吐不快！

到底一个人要如何才能够改掉那些所谓的“脾气”动作，或难听一点就是“幼稚”这种坏习惯呢？有的人会为了一时之气然后就对你老板着脸，给你脸色看。以前的我也会这样，但是因为身边朋友的劝说，所以挨了那么久，我始终也有了改变。那些因为一时的脾气，或对某个人不顺眼的时候而抱怨、瞪眼、翻白眼的动作，在别人眼里只会显得是多么的幼稚！但他们却不以为然！不以为然还不紧要，反而要对你有厌恶的动作或对你发脾气抑或不服输然后坚持抱着自己的尊严的才可悲啊！！！以前的我是那种人，现在的我却要面对这种人啊！

我有一个朋友，他连到底要如何分辨一位朋友是真心已否也不懂。当然，不是每个人包括我在内也不懂。但是，有的时候，一些动作，一些肢体语言，一些谈话就可以轻易辨认那位朋友是否是真心的。有的人会认为在他面前，只要顺他意、和他的节奏“拍”得很好，那这位朋友就一定是自己的知己了，但有谁知道，这些人台前幕后可会是双面人呢；有的人会对那些敢于批评他、或在他面前做一些会让他觉得不好受的事情，那他就会认定这些人一定是自己的敌人、或开始用异眼来对待他们，但有谁知道，其实这班人就是在救着他啊！

应该都听过“良药苦口利于病，忠言逆耳利于行”这句名言吧！大家都知道这句话，可却偏偏要逃避里面的意思啊！“忠言逆耳利于行”说明的就是不中听的话，虽然听进耳里很不好受，但这些却偏偏是改变你们行为思想的药啊！唉……无论如何，在这个世界上，还是存在着那些喜欢听好话人，而且还永远不知道自己的行为已经让人忍到了一个极限……

Day Without You Online, Day 40, Rainy:

Haiz... Today should be a happy day, however, something happened and caused me down...

Tonight is quite free. I planned to talk more, in fact because of some standpoint, thus I think is better that I keep it. "Sometimes, something should be told then continue, something shouldn't then don't or once speak out, then the situation will become stiff..." This is the thing that I understand after 33 posts I have written. Anyway, there's a thing I think I still need to speak it out!

How a person can throughout change his "emotional" action, or also known as "childish" this type of bad habit? Sometimes a person can because of a small thing then have a weird face to you or angry to you. I used to be like that, but because of the friends around me which keep giving advices to me, I changed finally. Those people who just because for a while temperament, then not pleasing to the eyes, or complaint or turns the supercilious look, which the action that seems to be very childish to other people's eye! However, they don't know about it. Fine if they don't know, but the pitiful one is if they are persist their dignity, or angry with you, or don't even concede!!! I was that kind of person, and now I need to face this kind of person!

I have a friend who doesn't know how to differentiate whether a friend is true friend or not. And of course, not everyone including myself know how to do it. However, sometimes, some movement, some body language, some talk can easily distinct whether they are sincere or not. Sometimes a person will think that those who act good, follow his will, or have nice "tempo" or can mix easily together, then this is a true friend, but who knows this kind of person might be two faces in front or behind the stage; sometimes a person thought that those who always dare to make comment on him, or do something that make that person feel uncomfortable, then the person will think that they should be his/her enemy, and started to use different way or unusual way to treat them, in fact, these people are trying to help the person!

Should be listened before about "Good medicine tastes bitter but it favors the sickness, honest talk is offensive but it corrects the attitude" this sentence! Everyone knows this sentence, but they still try to evade from the meaning! "Honest talk is offensive but it corrects the attitude" explains that sentences that although doesn't pleasant to the ear, yet it is the medicine that cure our incorrect mind and attitude! Haiz... Anyway, there are still people in this world who prefers the nice sentence, and don't know that their attitude has already let other people endures until a certain limit...

没有你上网的日子，第39天，阴：

唉……今天真是倒霉的一天……而且钱包还破了不少洞呢！！！

今天一早醒来，来到电脑前面坐着几分钟就去冲凉，准备去学校上课了。谁知就当我之前穿鞋踏出家门的时候，手机有讯息来。我查看一下，炸到！Class Cancel!我的头发弄好了、东西收好了、睡眠牺牲了，哪里知道……还真是倒霉。不过也不能够怎样了，我便画完我最后一张的Figure，然后就去学校了。

原本还以为早去学校可以准备所有Design II要呈上的assignment。谁知却被我遇到Ah Wayne和Ah Sun。我们就这样坐下来谈天。谈啊谈地，时间已经1.30pm了……迟了！我赶紧去弄我的东西，然后就回到班上去。这个时候，在我眼前所发生的事简直是晴天霹雳般让我呆了……我的Initial Design竟然Finish错了！都是没有跟着那该死的Handout……我尝试不去改它，哪里知道Lecturer却坚持要我改，不然就扣分。5分耶！考虑了后，我还是觉得“破财挡灾”比较实际点。就这样，买来的材料加加减减就用去我RM15++啊！！！真的是欲哭无泪……

对了！仪，今天知道你没有在MSN里Block我，反而是你的Internet有问题，上不到网……我真的很开心，但心中还是会觉得有些许的失望，因为你还是上不了网……没关系！我会等你的！:-)

Day Without You Online, Day 39, Cloudy:

Haiz... Today is a bad day... Furthermore my wallet has a big hole!!!

Today when I woke up, I came in front of my computer for several minutes and went to bath, and prepared to school. Who knows my hand phone showed incoming message before I left. I checked and the message really shocked me! Class cancel! I've styled my hair, packed my things, sacrifice my sleep, who knows... Really bad luck. Anyway, I couldn't do anything, thus I finished my last figure and went to school after that.

Well, I thought I went early to school can finish every assignments that needed to passed up in Design II. Suddenly, I met with Wayne and Sun. We had lunch and chatted until 1.30pm... It's late! I quickly finish my things and went back to class. At that moment, for what that had been came into my eyes really stunt me... I did wrong for the finishing of my Initial Design! Everything caused because of didn't follow the damn handout... I tried not to change it, however, lecturer told me that I could only chose whether change or had mark deducted. 5% ah!
After a moment of consideration, I thought I better "Lost Wealth To Block Disaster" is more practical. And so, I spent almost RM15++ for the materials!!! Really wanted to cry but have no tears (Haha! Direct translation... Paiseh...)

Oh ya! Yee, I knew that you didn't block me in MSN, but your internet connection had some problems, and can't online... I really happy, however, still a little bit disappointed that you couldn't online... Is ok! I will wait for you! :-)

没有你上网的日子，第38天，雨：

今天的部落格很早的哦！呵呵！不过我写得不长，因为等下还要赶功课……唉……

嗯……刚看了《18禁不禁》哦！这一集是地球的主场戏哦！很高兴他终于能够和又佳一起了！恭喜恭喜！还有阿杰在里面的冷笑话还真蛮好笑的：“呃，地球停止运转了……”=.="无论如何，看到最后的预告片真的会让我吓一大跳！夏念乔（小薰）走了！我之所以被吓不是因为她的走（早在网上看过了），而是怎么那么快啊？！不是第15集才走吗……？！我看了预告片后，就直接去《18禁不禁》的官方论坛。那里的骂帖还真的很多，都是在骂制作单位以及小薰的另一部电视剧（小配角）——《黑糖瑪奇朵》。网友们都BS（鄙视）这部电视剧，为的是支持《18禁不禁》。说真的，我看到预告片里的阿杰和阿乔哭的时候，我真的也要落泪了……真的很感动、很感动……

还有另一件事原本打算今晚说的，不过我将它拖到明天晚上吧！因为今晚是《18禁不禁》的！呵呵！好啦！就酱啦！:-)

Day Without You Online, Day 38, Rainy:

Today's blog very early o! Hehe! But I'm not going to have it long, as later need to continue my assignments... Haiz...

Hm... Just watched "18 Censored Or Not"! This episode is the story of Di Qiu o! Very happy to see that he can be with You Jia finally! Congratulations! In addition, A Jie's cold joke quite funny too, "Err... Di Qiu (the Earth) has stop turning..." =.=" Anyway, the preview of next episode at the last past really shock me! Xia Nian Qiao (Xiao Xun) has left! I shocked not because of her left (read before in web), but why so fast?! I thaught is episode 15...?! After I watched the trailer, I straight away went to "18 Censored Or Not" official forum. That forum really full of anger thread, and every of it is scolding on the cast and Xiao Xun's another drama (small actor) - "Hei Tang Ma Qi Duo". Web users are despising the drama, just because of supporting "18 Censored Or Not". Honestly, I felt like wanted to cry when I saw Ah Jie and Ah Qiao were crying... I was touched, really touched...

Actually I have another thing to say tonight, but I dragged it until tomorrow's night! Because tonight is belongs to "18 Censored Or Not"! Hehe! OK! That's all! :-)

没有你上网的日子，第37天，雨：

哈！好不容易终于进来了……不懂为什么每到晚上Streamyx的线就不稳定了……明知到我还要上来这里……对了！今天的雨下了一整天哦！这个情况应该是今年的第一次吧！雨季来临咯！

嗯……下午看了《世贸中心》（World Trade Center）这部电影（我知道我落后很久了……）。怎么说好呢……嗯，想要看澎湃的场面的朋友们，那就不适合看这部戏了。假如我的记忆没错的话，因为制片单位不想勾起美国人的痛，所以并没有将整座大厦倒塌的情形拍摄出来，只不过是用飞机的影子以及新闻播报的方式来呈现。这部戏主要描述的是在2001年9月11日的中午，有为数不少的警卫精英被委派去执行拯救的任务。谁知，大厦的倒塌将他们都活生生埋起来，然后最后只有20位生还者被救出来。影片里描述的就是其中两位的故事。这部戏可是根据真人真事的哦！我看了很有感触，尤其是有几幕还让我流下热泪（还好坐在隔壁的Andy没有看到……）。影片拍得很真实、很写实，而且也重重地道出了影片的重心，那就是“爱”！

有的时候，我的头脑会一直不停地转。我不是在思考什么有深度的问题，而是在想着人一生到底要如何才算长大了。以此同时，我也会想想每天晚上的部落格应该如何写。渐渐地，我就开始胡思乱想了。什么七杂八乱的都想……爱情、友情、亲情、金钱、功课、电脑等等。只要能够想的我都会去想。现在在写这篇部落格的时候，我开始觉得我离主题越来越远了。到底这几个星期以来的文章还有关于到“没有你上网的日子”吗……？

仪，在这里我要对你说一些东西。虽然我懂你是看不到的，但我还是要将内心里的话说出来。有人问过我，而且很好奇地问我，为什么我会看上你，原因很简单，打从第一天在学校的Orientation的时候，你就给我留下印象了。当时的你，悠悠记得你是穿着黑衣和黑色长裤的。从那个时候，我就开始注意你了。直到发现到和你的班一起上Pengajaran Malaysia的时候（还在1st Term的阶段），我真的很开心。而且还会一直注意你、看你……虽然我有几次有冲动想要向前认识你，但我还是不敢这样做，直到了这个term当我知道你和Gam Fatt是认识的时候， 我知道我必须争取这个机会，所以也造就了我得到你的MSN的机会……

不知不觉地，从第一天和你谈天起，离现在已经有37天了……虽然我知道时间不长，但我还是会珍惜每一次和你谈天的机会。每当看到你上线的时候，我真的很开心，而且也分秒必争地和你谈天……

仪，请问我还有这个机会吗？现在的你，还在生我的气吗……？

Day Without You Online, Day 37, Rainy:

Ha! Finally can reach here... No wonder why the Streamyx line will slow down and unstable every night... I still need to come here...! Oh ya! Today's rain has fell for a whole day! I think this is the first time in this year! Monsoon season is coming lo!

Hmm... I watched "World Trade Center" in the afternoon (I know I was outdated...). Hmm... to those who wishes to watch big CG effect, then you are not suitable for this movie. If I'm not mistaken, due to not to recall the pain of the American, thus the movie doesn't show how's the WTC fell. They just use the airplane's shadow to show the incident plus the news from television in the movie. This movie is more explaining on during the day of 11th September 2001, numerous of police officers were ordered to have their rescue mission at the scene. Who knows the building fell suddenly and buried all the rescue teams, and only 20 survivors had been rescued. The movie is describing the 2 of the 20, based on real story! I was touched by the movie, especially some scene that caused my tears flowed (luckily Andy didn't notice me...). The movie was so realistic and practical, and fully brings out the core of the story, that is "LOVE"!

Sometimes, my brain will always turn. I'm not thinking of any deep questions, but how to consider whether a person is counted grow up or not. I will too think of the topic for my blog at the same time. Gradually, I started to think with no direction. During the written of this blog, I started to feel that my content has became further to my topic. Did the blogs in past few weeks still related to "Day Without You Online"...?

Yee, I want to tell you something here. Although I know you can't see this, yet I still want to voice out my feeling. People did ask me why I will have a liking for you, the reason is simple, since the first the day I saw you during orientation in school, you gave me impression. I still roughly remember that you were wearing black shirt with black long pants. Since that day I started to notice you. Until I found out that we were in same class for Pengajaran Malaysia (still the 1st term), I felt really happy. I too always pay my attention on you and looked at you... Although I intended to know you, but I wasn't dare to do so, until this term when I knew that you and Gam Fatt were know each other, I knew I must have the chance, and I have your MSN as the result...

Unconsciously, since the first day I talked with you until today, it has been 37 days... I know the time is short, but I appreciate every moments that I talk with you. Every time when I see you online, I feel very happy, and seize every second and minute to talk with you...

Yee, do I have a chance for one more time? Are you still angry with me...?

没有你上网的日子，第36天，雨：

今天应该是最迟的了……呵呵！不好意思了……

其实今天也没什么好说的。只不过看见帖子一天一天的浏览人数慢慢下降然后已经一个星期没有人给予回复，心慢慢冷了下来……不过当想到这一些只为了她的时候，我还是会努力去完成每一天的部落格的！

在这里希望有路过我的部落格的朋友们，只需要你们的一个小小回复或投票选择关于我的部落格的意见，我就心满意足了……谢谢你们哦！:-)

Day Without You Online, Day 36, Rainy:

Today I think is the latest post... Hehe! Paiseh...

Actually nothing to be said too today. Just the visitor's number is decreasing everyday and no comment posted for one week, my heart has started to cooling down... However, whenever think all of these are for her, I still courage myself to finish everyday's blog!

Hopefully all my blog readers, just a small comment from you guys or vote your point of view about my blog, that's enough for me... Thanks o! :-)

没有你上网的日子，第35天，雨：

今天的部落格是忙里偷闲写的，因为这个星期的功课比世界第一高峰还要高哦！呵呵！

嗯……今天没什么好说的。就提一提女主角吧！最近一直有朋友要我将她的照片放上来，但是，我相信大家都知道这是不可能的事。第一：那是人家的私隐；第二：我不可以不经她的同意就放她的照片；最重要的，我没有她的照片……哈哈！所以，各位不好意思咯~不过假如你们真的要知道她的真面目的话，就靠想象力咯！幻想一位漂亮的天使就行了 ……哈哈！

就酱咯！对了！最近爱上了英文歌……等下要慢慢地听了……呵呵！:-)

Day Without You Online, Day 35, Rainy:

Today's blog is written in the middle of busyness, as this week assignments are higher than world's highest mountain! Hehe!

Hmm... Nothing to say today. Let me talk about her! Recently has friends request her photo to post in blog, however, you guys know its impossible to do so, right? First: that's people's privacy; secondly, I need her authority to do so; and the most important is, I don't have her photo... Haha! So, "pai seh" loh~ If you really want to know her face, then imagine it. Think of a beautiful angel then alright... Haha!

That's all! Oh ya! Preferring English songs these days... Later I want to stick my ears on them... Hehe! :-)

没有你上网的日子，第34天，晴：

今天鼻子差点“烂”掉了啦！！！

嗯……当你一觉醒来，应该是一天的开始的时候，就因为不停地“哈湫”（打喷嚏）就毁了一整天的心情，相信每个人都应该经历过吧！我今天就这样“哈”了一整天，纸巾一张又一张，树死了一棵又一棵……原本打算画完三张的concept就睡觉，但一想到这里（部落格）就不禁打起精神来……

今天的晚餐很特别哦！有一位在印度读着牙科的老朋友回来了，而且还来到我这里（吉隆坡）玩。在姐姐的提议下，我们便一起在附近的火锅店一起打边炉。他整个人都没有很大的改变，最大的改变，就是多了“印度味”或“咖喱味”。哈哈！对了，忘了说他的名字。他就是人见人爱且成熟稳重的智伦是也！哈哈！下面我会放上他的照片……

今天就酱啦……鼻子真的好辛苦……我应该需要去拜访麦克积逊了。人家好歹也换过鼻子，或许我也该换换……哈哈！

Day Without You Online, Day 34, Sunny:

Today my nose going to be rotten soon!!!

Hmm... When you wake up early in the morning, it should be a new and fresh day. Just because of "Ha Qiu" (Sneeze) and spoil the whole day's mood, I believe everyone sure did past this experience! I "ha" for a whole day, the tissued used one by one, the tree die one by one... Planned to rest after I finished my three concept thumbs, but I wake myself up when here(blog) flashed in my mind...

I have a nice dinner today! An old friend who studies dental in India came back to hometown and stay in KL for fun. We decided to have buffet steamboat after sister made her mind up. He doesn't change much, only thing that make himself different is more "Indian" feel and "Curry" feel. Haha! Oh ya, forgot to mention his name. He is Tee Lun, who favourited by many people and a very mature guy! Haha! I will attach the photo at the bottom...

That's all for today... My nose really pain... I think I should have a visit to Micheal Jackson, as he changed his nose before. Well, I think I should change mine too... Haha!

就是他咯~ 和他一起的合照~ 呵呵！
Is him~ The photo taken with him~ Hehe!

没有你上网的日子，第33天，雨：

哈哈！不懂这个是不是如GHao所说的一样，果然接近每一个星期、每一堂Figure Class都会下雨的哦……而且连续两个Term的Figure Class都是在星期三的……是不是觉得很邪呢？哈哈！

今天的Drama Class还蛮好玩的哦！其实Eddy真的很厉害。他在演绎一个角色的时候表情很丰富，而且Body language很吸引人，让人看到目不转睛！今天我们的组也意思意思地演绎了我们的Final Presentation的故事。组合里的来沙地的Basoodan果然是一位演绎天才！他七情上演，而且眼神很神……哈哈！我们的组有了他还真的有点看头哦！

嗯……在这里我要特别感谢班上的大哥大，Ah Sun是也！他的确是一为全能的学生哦！今天在Figure Class开始之前，他教了我很多的Gesture画法。当然，在这之前他也传授了我很多的画法和技能。他很用心地教导我…… Ah Sun，谢谢你哦！希望到了Major我们能够同一个班然后多多合作，因为我真能够在你身上学到很多的东西！就算不同班也要多多出来相聚哦！

在这里要补充一下。今天终于交上了Majoring Form，而在表格上面打勾的是“数码动画”，既我将来的主科！我的梦想开始了……！

Day Without You Online, Day 33, Rainy:

Haha! Is it happened as what as GHao said, really every week, every Figure class rain... Furthermore, our class's Figure class are on Wednesday since first term until now... Is it terrifying? Haha!

Today's Drama class really interesting! Eddy really a good player! When he is acting, he has a rich facial expression and attractive body language, and your eye will stick on him at all time! Our group did have a experimental play on our final presentation's script. Group member who originated from Saudi Arabia, Mohammad Basoodan really a genius! He had a very good eye contact to each others and too to the audiences... Haha! Our group became interesting with his existence!

Hmm... I would like to say thank you to our class's big brother, Ah Sun (Shawn)! He is a versatile student o! He taught me a lot of Gesture drawing today before the Figure class. And of course, he did teach me a lot of drawing skills and techniques. He teaches me with intention... Ah Sun, really thank you a lot! Hopefully we still can remain in a same class when we reach major, cause I can learn lot of things from you! Even not in a same class, but yet need to gather frequently o!

Add something here. I have submitted my majoring form which ticked "Digital Animation" as my major! Here my dream begins...!

没有你上网的日子，第32天，晴：

嗯……今天突然间觉得时间蛮多的（其实还有很多的功课……）。
好啦！今晚就慢慢在这里叙述。呵呵！

刚刚看了《岁月风云》（一部我蛮期待的电视剧），还没看到内容就被它的主题曲吓到了，因为竟然是华粤一起的哦……哈哈！是不是很新鲜呢？其实大家应该也是有听过华粤一起的歌曲的，那就是王力宏和卢巧音一起唱的《好心分手》。是不是有点印象了呢？:-)

最近的帖子都没有人给予回复哦……嗯……我是否会就此伤心么？应该不会吧！但心里难免会有少少的失落感咯……其实写部落格不就是将自己每一天发生的事都一一记录起来，不应该渴望每个人都会去读、去看、去留言，毕竟不是每个人都那么“八卦”的嘛……呵呵！（当然，我是希望能够看到读者们的留言……）

是不是觉得最近都少了“女主角”的消息呢……？其实近来我也少看到她，更不懂她的近况如何……身边的朋友时不时就会问我关于我们的情况，但我实在是说不出来，也不懂该怎么说……在这里唯一可以告诉大家的就是，她已经在MSN里block我了，所以希望大家不要再问了。假如你们真的想知道的话，就每一天都上来我的部落格吧！（不是在打广告哦……）嗯……其实想想一下，既然人家都block我了，那么我再继续这个《没有你上网的日子……》会不会很讽刺呢？Err... 其实我也不懂，我只知道的就是，这个部落格会一直继续，一直写下去……什么时候我会停止呢？海枯石烂的时候吧……！:-)

最近我一直在看着一本书。其实这本书在教导人生道理上的确会给人很多的启发。也基于这样，我很想把这本书交给身边的一位朋友，让他读一读这一本书。我之所以有这个想法，是因为关于他的流言蜚语越来越多（当然，我一直希望我是中立的），我希望藉着这一本书能够让他有所启发。但是，我却有心无力……每一次从家门口去学校的那一刹那，我都会很犹豫是否要将那本书也一并带出去……

好啦！今天哈啦了不少……我想应该能够弥补多天以来少字的帖吧！哈哈！

Day Without You Online, Day 32, Sunny:

Hmm... Suddenly feel tonight has lots of time (actually many assignments to go...).
OK! Let me crap tonight. Hehe!

Just now watched "岁月风云" (sorry, don't know call what in English... Paiseh~~). Before I watched the contents, I shocked with the theme, as it is the combination of Chinese and Cantonese... Haha! Is it fresh? Actually I think all of us heard a song before which formed in Chinese and Cantonese too, that's Leehom and Lou Hao Yam's "好心分手". Still remember? :-)

These days thread have no people post reply... Hmm... Do I have to be upset? I think I won't! But the heart will be little disappointed anyway... Basically the purpose we write blog is to record down everything that happened in our daily life, and shouldn't desperate for read, look and leave comment by the readers, as not everyone is very "bagua"... Hehe! (For sure I wish to see readers' comments...)

Do you feel these days lack of "her" news...? Actually I do doesn't see her, and don't know how is her... Friends around me sometimes will ask me about "our" condition, but I really can't speak it out, and don't know how to say in addition... The only thing I can tell you guys is, she has blocked me in MSN, and hopefully you all will not ask me further... If you guys really want to know, then you all should everyday come to my blog (not advertising here...) Hmm... Seriously thinking, as people has blocked me, is it a satire if I still continue "Day Without You Online..."? Err... I also don't know. Only thing I know is this blog will always continue and update... When I will stop it? Maybe on the day of dry seas and crumbling rocks...! :-)

Recently I have read a book. The book has teach a lot of moral that lead you in your life. And because of this, I want to pass this book to one of my friend and let him read it. I have this kind of thought, as these days lots of rumors is about him (and of course I hope to be neutrality), and hopefully the book can help him. However, I can't make it... Every time when I want to leave my house, I will be dilemma and hesitate to bring the book along...

Thats all! Today really crapped a lot... I think I can fix back the posts in past few days! Haha!

没有你上网的日子，第31天，晴：

今天很气人啊！《18禁不禁》走了一天的结果是……0.0%！！！
明知道这一集的剧情很吸引人的……啊！！！

今晚的功课好多好多……我必须快快完成部落格然后就要开工了。开工过后还要“上课”啊……不过今天有几样很令人兴奋的事。呵呵！首先就是和Eong Earn在学校里玩Video Call。哈哈！很棒哦！而且很“先进”的感觉……呵呵！再来就是这一次的History Presentation我相信我们可以做得比上一次好！我知道不可以有比较的心态，不然自己永远都是失败的……！

嗯……仪，已经两个星期没看到你了哦！虽然电话回来了，但我也知道我不该再sms你……你最近怎样了？还好吗？记得不要累坏身体哦！要好好照顾身体！最近的天气变化无常，要多喝水哦！:-)

Day Without You Online, Day 31, Sunny:

Today is an exasperating day! "18 Censored Or Not" downloaded for a whole day and the result is... 0.0%!!! This episode's plot is really nice a!!!

Tonight has lots of assignments... I need to finish my post ASAP and start my work. After work need to attend "class" some more... However, today has some nice things to share with you guys. Hehe! Firstly, I had a video call with Eong Earn today in school with my new 3G phone. Haha! Is really great! And full with the "futuristic" feel... Hehe! Next is I confident with this time History Presentation will be better than last time! I know I shouldn't have the competitive kind of feeling, as I will always be the loser...!

Hmm... Yee, is a couple week I didn't see you. Although I have my phone back, but I know I shouldn't sms you anymore... How are you recently? Still fine? Don't make yourself down and must take care! These days' weather are constantly changing and must drink lots of water o! Take Care! :-)

没有你上网的日子，第30天，雨：

啊！
今天好累哦……原本打算长篇大论的，但是基于累，所以各位读者，不好意思咯……

嗯……今天没什么新鲜事发生。屋主收钱、下场大雨、洗洗厕所等等……还有就是打打DotA……功课有动一点……唉……算了！等我的《18禁不禁》！哈哈！今晚的剧情很棒的哦！:-)

对了！在这里要说声，这是第30天的帖子，也就是说我的等待，以及对你的思念已经有一个月了哦！希望你感受得到……

Day Without You Online, Day 30, Rainy:

Ah!
What a tiring day... I decided to have a long post today, however, because of tiredness, thus to all my readers, sorry...

Hmm... Nothing special happen today. House owner collected his rental fee, rained, washed toilet etc... And also DotA for several... Touched little bit my assignments... Haiz... Let it be! Wait for my "18 Censored or Not"! Haha! Tonight's plot will be very nice o! :-)

Oh ya! This is the 30th thread, which means my waiting, and the miss of you have reached 1 month o! Hope you can feel it...

没有你上网的日子，第29天，晴：

哈哈！今天很迟哦……其实我也是很忙……

嗯……今天有两个好消息要公布哦！第一：就是在失去了两个星期后，今天我终于的回我的手机啦！哈哈！我终于知道失去电话的滋味了……所以各位一定要好好地照顾你们的手机哦！还有就是，希望那些有读到我的部落格的朋友，麻烦你们将你们的电话放在这里，好让我能够存起来。谢谢哦！

再来的，也是最重要的好消息，那就是我的PTPTN通过啦！今天去检查银行户口的时候，发现到多出了RM4K……起初我很惊讶，过后想了一想，原来是PTPTN的！实在是很高兴哦！

哈！就这样！今天分享了两桩喜事！:-)

Day Without You Online, Day 29, Sunny:

Haha! Today's blog really late... Actually I'm very busy too...

Hmm... Today I have two good news to be announced! Firstly, I got back my mobile phone finally after two weeks time of losing it... Haha! I could have the feeling of life that without mobile phone... So, guys, must take good care of your hand phone o! Another thing, hopefully those who read my blog can give me your phone number here as I can save it. Thanks!

Next, and most important good news is, my PTPTN approved! Today I went to check my balance and suddenly saw additional RM4k in my account... I was shocked at beginning, but after awhile of thought, I realized that it could be PTPTN! Really a joy to me!

Ha! Thats all! Have shared two good news today! :-)

没有你上网的日子，第28天，晴：

今天的部落格很迟哦，因为刚刚和室友打了两场的DotA，呵呵！

嗯……下午和朋友看了《哈5》。真夭獸的……没有位子了，然后逼到坐在B排（可以想象是多靠近荧幕），2小时抬头对着大大的荧幕……话说回来，剧情蛮吸引的哦！最后Dumbledore和Voldemort的对决很有看头，CG效果很漂亮（但愿我以后毕了业能够做到如此的效果！）呵呵！

对了！我今天剪了头发哦！一头的长发清理后，整个人都感觉松弛了许多。最重要的，就是外表看起来新鲜多了，然后整体很整齐……哈哈！我可不是自恋哦！:-)

好啦！今晚没什么想说的……功课很多哦！要赶了！加油！

Day Without You Online, Day 28, Sunny:

Today's update is quite late, as just have 2 DotA games with house mates, hehe!

Hmm... Watched "Harry Potter 5" with friends in the afternoon. TMD... No more seats and we need to sit at row B (can imagine how close is it to the screen), 2 hours place up the head and facing the screen.... Anyway, this episode has a nice storyline! Scene which Dumbledore fight with Voldemolt has a very nice CG effect (hopefully I can create the same too when I graduated!) Hehe!

Oh ya! I cut my hair today! After clear all the long and messy hair, I feel lighter. Most importantly is I have a fresh new look and more attire... Haha! I'm not praising myself o! :-)

K! Nothing much to be written tonight... Lots of assignments need to be completed! Gambateh!

没有你上网的日子，第27天，晴：

“请问这是固执吗……？”

今天的我一直在想着这个问题……唔……的确！有的时候我们不会知道我们所坚持的，是否是固执还是好的执着……你会陷入这种咎境，然后不懂该如何接下去。或许你觉得坚持下去，有可能是对的，也有可能是错的……又或许你突然放手，不再执着，你却觉得你得到了另一样东西……各位读者们，你们时常都会遇到这种状况吧！那请问在非常时期的话，你们会选择继续坚持呢，还是放手……？不要觉得很难去做选择，只要你觉得你的选择是对的话，那么不管是坚持还是放手，你都懂如何接下去下一步路，不再左右两难，因为你在慢慢长大了……

嗯……今天的心情平服了很多……或许我开始在寻找我要的东西了……这样东西不是物质、摸不到、看不到、听不到、甚至闻不到……虽然如此，你却感受得到。你凭着感觉来走、凭着感觉来找，可你却还是不知道那样东西到底是什么……一旦你找到了那样东西，你却会不以为然，因为它有可能早就埋藏你的身边、心理……我亲爱的读者，你们是不是有的时候也会这样呢？这不是迷茫，也不是“失魂”，所以不要觉得害怕。只要凭着感觉走，然后不要踏错脚步，那你慢慢地就会知道那样是什么东西了！重要一句话，可不要觉得自己一直在疑神疑鬼哦！:-)

是不是觉得今天的帖子有点特别呢？哈！上面所说的东西，可是时常发生在你自己的身上哦！选择与不，寻找与不，这些其实都不是很重要，因为通常当这两样东西发生在自己的身上的时候，你会很悄然地觉得，原来这些东西我都说不出口的，因为都是“不能说的秘密”……

祝好运哦！:-)

Day Without You Online, Day 27, Sunny:

"Is it a tenacious...?"

I'm keep thinking this question the whole day... Hmm... Exactly! Sometimes we couldn't know whether the one we rigid is either good or bad... You will in dilemma, and don't know how to continue the journey. You might feel that should continue stand on your position, it might be a positive decision, but it could be the negative too... Or you suddenly let go, no more rigid, and you get another thing as a result... Dear my readers, you will face this situation, always, right? Then allow me to ask this, when you are in the critical situation, will you continue persist, or let go...? Don't feel hard to make the decision, as you think your choice is correct, no matter you choose to persist or let go, you still know how to continue the journey, and no more dilemma in you, as you are growing up...

Hmm... Today I feel much more better... Maybe I start to search for the things that I want... It isn't a matter, untouchable, invisible, couldn't be listened and even couldn't be smelled... However, you could feel the thing. You walk as you feel and search as you thought, yet you still don't know what is the things... However, once you found it, you think otherwise, as it might existed around you or in your mind at the beginning... Ladies and gentlemen, do you feel the same too sometimes? This isn't a lost or loses the soul, thus you don't need to be afraid of... As long as you walk according to what you feel, and don't have a mistaken steps, then you can figure out what is the thing gradually! Most important is, don't scare yourself with unnecessary method! :-)

Is it today's thread special? Ha! The things mentioned above are always happened on yourself! Choose or not or search or not is doesn't matter. Usually when this two things happen on yourself, you will find that the things are can't be told, as all of these are "Secret That Cannot Be Told"...

Wishing Good Luck Here! :-)

没有你上网的日子，第26天，晴：

我到底应该怎么办……“我一定要改变自己”这句话是从昨晚读的一本书看到的。改变心态、改变想法、改变外观、改变待人处世的方法……

我慢慢开始地感觉累了……我一直在挣扎，而且身边披着羊皮的狼也慢慢地显现了……在世上有多少人是戴着面具做人的？就连我自己，脸上也是有隔着一层薄薄的膜啊！芒果娘，假如你有看到我这篇部落格的话，请你教教我如何，好吗……？

有的时候我真的很迷茫……我将所有的感受放在部落格上，是因为我找不到诉苦的地方。渐渐地，我也不想大家再来读我的文章了，因为我知道，我的文字已经逐渐在伤害着身边的朋友……我不知道我这样的做法对还是不对，而且也不懂背后开始有多少支箭的苗头在指着我了，但我还是不畏惧去面对这一切！我自问心无愧！承蒙周杰伦的话：“我不可能做到每一个人都喜欢我，因为我不是神，但是我能够做的，就是做那些我认为不会伤害到我和身边人的事情！”

接下来的我会怎样呢……？逃避？面对？人，真的能够做到看破一切吗？人，真的能够做到一切都不在乎吗？人，真的能够做到平常心吗……？！

Day Without You Online, Day 26, Sunny:

What should I do... "I must change myself" I found this sentence in the book I read last night before I slept. Change your mind, change you thought, change you appearance, change your way of threating people...

I slowly feeling tired... I always struggles, and the wolf under sheep's coat has gradually show their true color... How many people in this world is not wearing a mask? Even myself, I too have a thin membrane that cover my face! MANGO, if you read this blog, can you tell me what should I do... Fine...?

Sometimes I really lost myself... I express my feeling on blog, as I couldn't find a place to voice out. Gradually, I don't feel like to let you all read my blog, because I know, my words has started to be harmful to my friends... I don't know whether I'm doing a right thing or not, and I don't know how many arrows are pointing towards me, yet I still can face this situation bravely! I know I'm doing anything wrong! As my favorite star, Jay Chow's word," I can't make myself welcomed by everyone, because I'm not a God, but what can I do are those things that doesn't harm myself and also the people around me!"

What will happen next...? Escape? Facing? Can men really see through everything? Can men really don't bother everything? Can men really peace their mind and heart...?!

没有你上网的日子，第25天，晴：

嗯……今天还蛮多烦恼的啊！尤其是触碰到History的事情，真的很让我心烦！或许我还未从上一次的“失败”走出来……History of Art & Design II已经慢慢的成了我的阴影……我很害怕着一个科目，尤其是说到Presentation，我就会不知觉地发抖，心里感到害怕……下午Zac临时开了一个会议，我在那个时候把闷在心里的话都一次过说出来……

最近的烦恼真的很多……！感觉很累……现在的生活，慢慢地被时间控制了，被烦恼控制了……有的时候我会感觉到很懊恼，但是又没有地方让我来吐诉。电话买了一个星期，但是Sim card寄了一个星期却还没到！这里的邮政真的可以去X了啦！！！身边的朋友一个又一个有问题，有的时候我也不懂要如何面对他们……说实在的，Andy有的时候老爱开那些很乱的歌曲或音乐，不然就是重复一首歌几千次，再不然就是开那些什么圣歌……心里一句话，那些圣歌我一手也不觉得好听！我在这里要说出来，是因为我真的忍那些歌很久了……请容许我一个机会在这里哭诉吧……！真的！那些歌只不过是用来歌颂耶稣，我不觉得是什么真正的圣歌。假如你真要听，我有很多朋友可以介绍给你……

仪，很多人问我为什么最近都不写关于你……其实，我是不懂要写些什么。之前（上个星期）有机会碰到你，让我有很多东西写关于你。现在，我也是很想写的，但我真的不懂要写什么。或许，可以让你知道我每一天还是一样思念你。我开始慢慢地不再渴望走在路上可以碰到你，或许，我真的开始接受了“随缘”和希望我们都能够顺其自然。嗯……Wayne，其实我不懂该不该让你继续帮我。说在兄弟份上，有的时候我反而渴望我和仪能够就这样“向左走，向右走”……其实我不是胆小，但，你也懂我的处境。我真的很害怕她会再次生气，那个时候我想我就真的是Game Over了……

有的时候想一想，我真的很后悔。Wayne，你告诉过我她之前和我msn得很快乐，我回想的时候，真的很后悔！我真的不应该那么的冲动！一切的一切都是冲动啊！假如我能够忍着不按电话，那么现在的我也不会那么的痛苦了……对不起！我还是一样！我还是做不到心平气和……

到底我接下来会如何……？我自己也不敢想象了……

Day Without You Online, Day 25, Sunny:

Hmm... Today is the day that frustrating me the most! Especially the thing about History! Well, maybe I'm still couldn't escape from the previous failure~ History of Art & Design II has slowly haunted me, a subject that frightening me... When talk about presentation, I will shiver and scare... Zac, our group leader had on a meeting in today afternoon and I voiced out everything...

Recently I have lots of problems...! Feeling tired... Life nowadays has slowly controlled by time and troubles... Sometimes I feel down and stressful, but no way for me to voice out... Handphone has bought for a week, but sim card still haven't reach! The POS MALAYSIA can go to hell lah!!! Friends around me having trouble accordingly and yet I don't know how to face them... Frankly saying, Andy likes to open those rock musics, or repeat a song in a thousand times, or play those annoying church songs! Honestly, I don't think those church songs are nice! I want to say it here, because I can't stand with the songs anymore! Please allow me to have a change to express my feeling here...! Seriously! Those songs are made to eulogy their God, and I don't feel like is really any church songs. If you really want to listen, I have lots of friends that can introduce for you...

Yee, lots of people ask me why I'm not writing about you recently... Well, I don't know what to write actually... Before that (last week) I had lots of chances to meed with you, thus I have tons of things to write about you. Now, I want to write too, but I really don't know what to write. Maybe I can let you know that I miss you everyday. I started not to hope to saw you by the roadside. Well, maybe I started to accept "随缘" and hope we two can let the God decide everything. Hmm... Wayne, actually I don't know whether you should continue help me or not. As buddy, sometimes I wish that Yee and I can "one to left, one to right"... Actually I'm not a coward, but, you know my situation. I really scare that I will cause she angry one more time, and I really Game Over at that time...

Sometimes when think back, I really regret. Wayne, you told me that she was very happy to chat with me before in MSN... I shouldn't be so rush! Everything caused by impulse ah! If I can endure and not to press the phone, and I wouldn't be so suffer... Sorry! I'm still the same! I can't make myself into a calm person...

What will happen next...? I can't imagine...

没有你上网的日子，第24天，晴：

好多功课的一个晚上啊！！！其中的Design真的让我喘不过气来，加上一个伤脑筋的Report需要完成……晕~~

嗯……感觉上最近都没有什么东西好写的。日子一样地忙碌、一样地无聊……或许在这里发发牢骚也是不错的！呵呵！有一点要提到的是，怎么迅雷走不动的啊！！！我期待的《18禁不禁》下载的速度好慢，让我到现在都还没得看！唉……

既然那么无聊，我就给大家猜猜一个问题吧！问题很简单，但是答案却会令大家想得多的哦！:-)问题是这样的：

“当一个人感觉到烦躁的时候，是他制造的烦恼使他如此，还是烦恼让他如此？”

大家可不要觉得这是“一句”很简单的问题！要好好看清楚哦！

Day Without You Online, Day 24, Sunny:

What a night full with assignments!!! Especially Design that doesn't allow me to breath, plus the unfinished Field Trip Report... Faint~~

Hmm... Recently feel like nothing to be written. The day continue with rush and hush... Well, maybe express myself at here also a good choice...! Hehe! Oh ya, one thing that need to mention is, Thunder 5 can't "move"!!! The drama that I'm downloading - "18 Censored or Not" move even slower than snail, and I can't watch it until now as a result... Haiz...

Since the day is so boring, allow me to have a question for you guys! Is a simple question, but it needs to be thought wider! :-) Here is the question:

"When a person is being frustrated, is it the matters he created causes him to be like that, or the matters itself?"

Guys, don't think that its a simple question! Read and think twice!

没有你上网的日子，第23天，雨：

哈哈！期待了几个星期，熬了几个星期，今天终于感受到雨水带来的凉快了！哈哈！很棒的雨水啊！而且雨水也将天上的尘埃冲走了，换来的是清新和干净的空气，就连云顶高原也从新出现在我眼前了……呵呵！

嗯……今天和我的作词拍档聊了一下下。他建议我改掉《没有你上网的日子》的编曲，因为电吉他的部分给人不是很温和的感觉。其实他说的也不是不无道理，因为我的编发的确会给予人家一种摇滚的感觉。还有就是，真多得他，还帮我改了词。我本身原本就词穷，而且配上我的编曲，之前放上来的词的确有很多要改进的地方。:-)

在这里我要告诉我各位的读者，《没有你上网的日子》已经完成主干旋律了咯！就快完成了！希望到时候各位能够多多支持哦！

Day Without You Online, Day 23, Rainy:

Haha! After several weeks of waiting and suffering, today finally can felt the coolness of rain! Haha! What a wonderful rain! Rain too swapped off all the dust in the air and brought the fresh and clean air as return. Moreover, Genting Highland has back to my eye... Hehe!

Hmm... Today I've chat with my lyricist partner. He suggested me to change the "Day Without You Online" song's arrangement, as the distortion guitar part gives people feel uncomfortable. He was right as the arrangement brings the rock feel to others. Besides that, he too help me to re-modify the lyrics. I'm lack of letters, plus my arrangement, the previous lyrics really need to be fix... :-)

Dear all my blog readers, "Day Without You Online" has finished the main melody and going to be done soon! Hopefully you guys will support o!

没有你上网的日子，第22天，晴：

致各位的读者们，是不是觉得我的部落格换上了新面貌呢？:-)经过了一天的努力，我将《没有你上网的日子》弄了很大的改变，尤其是增加了歌曲MV和照片但还是保持褐色的底。经过考虑后，歌曲MV将会不时更新，以免大家不会觉得厌腻，打头炮的，当然就是这个部落格的主题曲了—《Waiting For You》！希望大家会多多支持新的界面哦！

嗯……今天蛮开心的哦！我的Copywriting考取了A的成绩哦！当然我不是在这里炫耀，而是要和各位亲爱的读者们分享我的喜悦哦！:-)希望我在其他的科目也能够得到B等以上的成绩吧！大家一起努力！

好了！今天不是很多东西需要写。最后，希望各位能够多多支持新的《没有你上网的日子》哦！也希望各位能够对新的界面给予意见，留下Comment供我参考！谢谢哦！

Day Without You Online, Day 22, Sunny:

Dear all my blog's readers, do you feel the new interface of the blog? :-) After a day of setup, "Day Without You Online" has a big changing, especially the adding of song's MV and photos, and yet still remain the brown colour background. To avoid boringness, song's MV will be updated once for a while after consideration, and 1st to be shown is the theme of the blog, "Waiting For You"! Hopefully you guys will support this new interface o!

Hmm... Today is quite a happy day! I score an A in Copywriting! Well, I'm not showing off at here, but sharing my happiness with you guys! :-) I wish I can score at least B grade and above for other subjects! Everyone Gambateh!

Thats all for today! Nothing much to be written today. Lastly, hopefully you guys can always support the new "Day Without You Online" o! In addition, I wish to see comments on new interface for my references. Thanks!

没有你上网的日子，第21天，晴：

首先，我要恭喜我自己，因为我的网站浏览人数破百啦！哈哈！恭喜！恭喜！然后要谢谢所有浏览我的部落格的读者哦！要不是你们，我的部落格也不会那么快破百的。谢谢大家的支持！

嗯……高兴的事过了，现在要提的是伤心的事了。其时也不能说伤心，因为一切的一切，都是“冲动”所引起的。我要告诉大家的是，冲动永远都是一个错！有的时候，一时的冲动，会造成别人心理上的创伤，因为你可能一时冲动而破口大骂；有的时候，一时的冲动，会造成别人心理上的压力，因为你可能一时冲动而不断催促人家；有的时候，一时的冲动，会造成别人情绪上的波动……还有就是，有的时候，一时的冲动，分分钟造成你会后悔一辈子！这就是发生在我身上的事情……

当初我真的应该听听Andy的忠告，慢慢来……现在我真的很后悔！我以为两三天一次sms是很少的次数，谁知那个数目已经是一个红色警戒的号码了！就因为这个等不及兼冲动的个性，造成了她的困扰，然后就是反感……我知道这件事后，我真的很害怕……因为我知道女生一反感，就真的很难再救回了……到底，我还有拯救的方法吗……？

今天朋友告诉我你的班接近整班都知道我和你的事情，而且还造成你的困扰。我真的很对不起！而且当我听到的时候，我也吓到！我还以为你的班会没有人知道的……谁知……其实你也该懂什么原因造成你是班上的风云人物，但是假如你要怪我，我也不会在意，因为一切的祸首都是我造成的。追根究底，都是我的错！

仪，在这里我想告诉你的一句话就是，我是诚心诚意想要和你交朋友的。或许你是第一次遇到这种状况，然后我的举动吓到了你，但我这没有恶意的。我承认我对你有好感，但是和你交朋友的目的不是最后要你当我的女友，而是我真心想要认识你这位朋友……！

Day Without You Online, Day 21, Sunny:

Firstly, I want to congrats myself, as my Blog reach 100 visitors! Haha! And I want to thank all my blog's readers! Without you guys, my blog can't reach the number easily. Thanks!

Hmm... Now I want to talk something quite pathetic to me. Actually is not really pathetic, as everything started from "impulse" or "urge". I want to tell you guys that "impulse" is always a big mistake! Sometimes, because of impulse, somebody will be mentally hurtled because of your anger or scolding; Sometimes, because of impulse, somebody will be mentally stressed because of your unstoppable urge; sometimes, because of impulse, somebody's mood will be influenced... And one more, sometimes, because of impulse, it will cause you regret forever within a minute! This is what happen on me...

Initially I should really listened to Andy's advice, slowly and steady... Now I really regret! I thought a sms in two three days is very few, who knows that's the caution number that warning me! Because of urge and couldn't wait, and she was frustrated, and repugnance at the end... I was very afraid once I knew it, because I know, once the girl was repugnance, then is hard to rescue... Do I have the chance to recover the situation...?

Today my friend told me that almost your whole class know the thing between you and I, and causes you a lot of problems. I really sorry about that, and I was very shocked, when I heard that! At the beginning, I thought nobody knows about it... Who knows... Hmm... Actually you know what's the reason caused you to become "woman of the hour", however if you want to angry me, I also never mind with that, because I'm the source of everything... Gets to the heart of the matter, is all my fault!

Yee, what I want to tell you is, I really sincerely want to become your friends. Well, maybe this is the 1st time you face this problem, and my action really frightening you, but I got no any bad intention. I admit that I have the favorable impression on you, however the motive I want to become your friend at the end is not wanting you to become my girlfriend, but I truly want to know this friend...!

没有你上网的日子，第20天，晴：

今日主题：《原来今天我上了一堂课！》

哈哈！大家是不是觉得今天的部落格有点特别呢？的确！原本在今天的Presentation后，我想我今晚的部落格会写得很down... 谁知道从我午觉醒来后，和我的“阿娘”谈天后，她的每一句话或许就这样影响了我……芒果娘，谢谢你哦！我会记得你说的每一句话的！尤其是一句最重要的：
“首先你必须做到的就是以下这个心态的改变:
1. 忘了自己有多优秀/或者忘了自己及身旁的人曾经告诉自己你有多优秀。
2. 永远记得这个世界任何的知识都是浩瀚的 任何人都是很渺小的 （ 这个想法可以帮助你了解人的能力有限），
能够融入以上两种心态你就不再觉得比较和胜负像你以往认为的那样重要了”

今天的Presentation虽然很多人都认为很好，但我却不以为然。我觉得我们的演绎方式有些不明不白的地方，还有最气人的就是一开始的Video Clip，前面的声音很小声，达不到预期的震撼效果……我知道我们会拿不到高分，但看到身边的组员们都满意这一次的演出，我也只好感到少少的安慰……原本我要写出我心里面比较的心态，但不打算这样做了。的确！看了Wayne的组后，我知道我们没有得比，但实话一句，我的心实在很不忿气……还好，有了娘的一番话后，她开导了我。她要我放开，不要太过执着，不然辛苦的是自己。无论如何，我还是要说声，Benson和Ah Kwee的配合真的是很厉害！哈哈！当然，Wayne的构思也很好，加上Ah Sun的演绎方式（放得很开哦:-)），你们的确可以得到很高分的！以后大家加油吧！:-)

嗯……接下来就是女主角的故事咯！唉……今天上天真的对我不薄啊！意，今天我和你擦肩而过的次数不在十次以内啊！有几次我看到你转头和后面的朋友谈天，我的心的确冷了下来……还有一次的黄金机会，就是在你们的组表演之前。那个时候你和我的步伐很缓慢，而且时间在刹那间也仿佛停了下来。就在那时候，我知道我必须举起手，所以我将手从裤袋里抽了出来。就在我要笑着对你问好的时候，我停下来了……那时候的我真的没有那个胆量，我真的很怕……Wayne和GHao骂我骂得对，假如我是那么地懦弱，根本就不配去喜欢女生……！唉……

还有什么要补充吗？嗯……让我想象……对了！我还要对Wayne说声对不起。真的很不好意思！下午我说要看戏，你能够留下来陪我，可是当我们要回的时候，我却乘了Henry的车。我之所以这样做是因为我们的东西都在Henry的车里，所以会比较方便。真的很对不起！

最后，我要再一次的说声谢谢给我的阿娘……要不是你，或许现在的我还在挣扎。短短一小时的谈话里，你却开启了我。我知道我前面还是一条很长很长的路，而且是铺满荆棘的道路，因为是时候让我长大了！

今天，我上了一堂宝贵的课……谢谢你！

Day Without You Online, Day 20, Sunny:

Today's topic:"Now Only Realize That I've Learn a Lesson!"

Haha! Do you feel any special about today's blog? Exactly! At the beginning, I taught tonight's blog will be a very upset blog after today's presentation... Who knows after chat with my "mom" after I woke up from afternoon nap, every of her sentences have influenced me a lot... Mango mom, thanks! I'll remember your every single words! Especially the most important 1:
"Firstly, you need to change the following attitudes:
1. Forget your strength or any praise from yourself and people around you.
2. Forever remind yourself that knowledge in the world is boundless and everyone is very tiny (this thought can let you know that human have their own strength and is limited),
With this 2 requirements, then you wouldn't bother too much on comparison and result."

Today's presentation although many people thought it was good, but I didn't think the same. I felt that our presentation was blurred, and what ruined me is the video clip. The beginning part is too soft and didn't reach the anticipated effect... I knew our group couldn't get high mark, but when I saw the members they all were satisfied with the performance, I felt the at least comfort in my heart... Actually I wanted to write about the comparison, but I don't.Exactly! After watched Wayne's group, I knew we couldn't fight with the,, but frankly saying, I did really feel "not syok"... Luckily, after Mom's word, I realized that I should let my hand off and don't rigid too much or I'm the one who will suffer the most. Anyway, I still want to say something to some people. Benson and Ah Kwee really good combination! Haha! Of course with the incredible idea from Wayne, and plus Ah Sun presentation (Really big sacrifice), you guys were aimed to given high mark! Gambateh Everybody! :-)

Hmm... Next is the story of you loh! Haiz... The God really treated me well today! Yee, you and I have more than 10 times that we met to each other today! Some I saw you turned your head to your friends when you saw me, my heart really cold down at the moment. Another golden chance, that was the time before your group's presentation. You and I walked very slow that time and the time seems like hold on. I knew I must raise my hand up, thus I took my hand out from pocket. Just right at the time when I want to greet you, I stop... I really not dare to so and scared... Wayne and GHao were right! If I continue to be braveless, then I don't need to fall in love with any girls...! Haiz...

Anything added? Hmm... Oh ya! I want make apology to Wayne. Really sorry! I said I want to watch the movie in the afternoon, then you accompanied me, but when we decided to go back, I ride Henry's car anyway. I did so as our things were inside his car and was more convenient to us. Really sorry for that!

Lastly, once again I want to thank to my Mom. Without you, I might still struggle now. An hour conversation really make my mind opened. I know there is a long way to go, and is the road that full of thorniness and hardships that allow me to grow up!

Today, I have learn a lesson... Thank you!

没有你上网的日子，第19天，晴：

今天没什么好写的哦！而且我也没有什么时间写……今天的blog可是偷了点时间写的，因为很忙啊！！！对了！现在的每一天都很热啊！！！我们每一天可是裸着上身的哦！呵呵！

嗯……History明天就要Present了……除了和我自己比赛之外，我也必须和其他的同学比赛！一切的准备就看明天了！希望我们的Presentation能够是完美的，最棒的！

好啦！今天真的写得很短，因为时间真的很紧迫……各位读者们，不好意思了……:-)

Day Without You Online, Day 19, Sunny:

Nothing to be written for today! Moreover, I'm lack of time to write... Today's blog I curi some time to write it as I'm very busy ah!!! Oh ya! Now everyday is hot like hell!!! Everyone of us everyday stay at home without shirt o! Hehe!

Hmm... History going to present tomorrow... I fight with myself, and of course with all other competitors! The whole preparation comes with result tomorrow! Hopefully our presentation will be perfect and the best!

That's all! Today is just a short blog, because I'm really sort of time... To all my readers, sorry for that o... :-)

P/S: Today English translation is very bad~~ Sorry ya...

没有你上网的日子，第18天，晴：

啊！好烦啊！今天发生了很多很多的事，造成心情很低落哦……唉……

首先，当然就是关于你的故事咯~今天碰到你的机会真的很多，而且有的距离真的很短、很短……今天的粉红色上衣好好看哦！虽然感觉上温柔多了，但你的表情也渐渐地冷酷多了……今天在午餐的当儿，我去拿了瓶豆浆。原本打算换成菊花茶的我，看到你在那里，让我停下了脚步，不敢再向前……过后你走到了我的背后，在刹那间，我们的距离是多么的短啊！我可以就这样转身，向你问好，但我真的做不到！我没有那个勇气……

过后，在会展里的时候，我们的距离也是那么的短。朋友一直鼓励我去和你开口说话，但我真的很害怕……从小到大，面对我喜欢的女生，我一向都不敢直接说话的。紧张？或许吧……到了最后的大合照……这个部分我真的很想对你说声对不起！一个不够，我可以再说两个、三个、甚至十个、一百个、一千个也好！我真的很抱歉，因为好兄弟硬要拉我和你站在一起。其实我懂你不喜欢这样，所以我也很刻意地站在离你远一点的地方，因为就算没有站在一起，隔着一两个人，我也满足了。但是我的“好兄弟”真的“帮”了我一个大忙，还弄到你逼不得已离开原位和你的朋友，站到一个角落去，弄到照片的效果不好……过后的sms希望你会明白（我的电话真的不见了）。无论如何，在学校的后巷，我还是看到你避开我的举动了……对不起~对不起！对不起……对了，今天另一位好兄弟告诉我他看到你有个朋友递了一支香烟给你。还好你拒绝啊！也千千万万不要抽烟啊！！！

嗯……接下来我要写的，是让我最心痛的事情，就是买电话一事……爸爸妈妈！真的很对不起！我真的很不孝，明明说好了买个便宜电话，但我还是买了一架RM900+的手机。我知道你们很心痛，就连我自己也是。我的心一直在淌血，就连过后要买皮鞋我也不敢买了……我答应你们，我一定会好好努力读书的！

今天要写的东西真的很多……说回Field Trip，除了我个人不高兴的事情以外，和其他同班同学mix在一起的时候很开心哦！尤其是在巴士里，因为我又找回了读书的快乐！在这里，我想要对所有的同班同学说，你们真的是很棒的同学哦！假如你们允许，可以给我一个机会做一首歌给我们的班吗？有读我的部落格的朋友们，希望你们会留言哦！

“停一停脚步，让我知道你们的感想”，朋友们，这句话是给你们的；
“世界上最遥远的距离，不是你在东我在西，而是你站在我前面，我们却永远都感觉不到对方的存在！”意，这句话是给你的！

Day Without You Online, Day 18, Sunny:

Arh! Is a frustrating day for me today and caused my mood really down...

Firstly, sure I talk about your story~ Today I had lots of chances to see you, furthermore, the distance is really short... Today's pink colour shirt really suit you and nice looking! Although it feels more gentle, but your facial expression has slowly turns cool... During the lunch, I took a soya bean. I planned to change into Chrysanthemum after that, but I saw you at the in front of the machine and my steps stopped and not dare to move further. After that, you walked to my back, and our distance is so close to each other at that moment! I can just turn my body and greet you, but I couldn't make it! I didn't have the courage...

After that, our distance also very short in the exhibition hall. My friends kept encouraging me to have a conversation with you but I really scare... Since I born to this world, I never had the courage to talk with the girl that I like. Nervous? Think so... Until the full photo snapping... This part I really want to make apology to you. I can make even 10, 100 or thousand if 1 is not enough! I really sorry for that as my good friend pulled me and wanted me to stand beside you. Well, I knew you hate people did that, so I purposely move myself to another place, as what I thought was, I would be very satisfy even we not standing together and walled by several people. But my friend and I really did a wrong thing and caused you sedulously stand to another side and split with your friends, and the photo looked weird as a result...Hopefully you can understand my SMS (I really lost my mobile phone) Sorry~ Sorry! Sorry... Oh ya, today my friend told me that he saw someone was giving you a cigarette. Very luckily that you rejected it! And never try on smoke ah!!!

Hmm... The next thing I want to say is something that really hurtled me a lot! It was about the buying of new mobile phone. Well, you guys know that my old phone had been burgled 2 days ago. Dad and Mom! Really SORRY! I'm not a good son, as I said to buy a cheap phone, but I still buy a RM900+ phone at the end. I know you two will be very sad, me too... My heart keep bleeding, and even not dare to buy leather shoe for presentation... I promise, I will be very hardworking in my study!

Today has lots of things to be written... Topic back to the Field Trip, besides that unhappy things that happened on myself, I really enjoy the trip when mixed with all my classmates! Especially in the bus, cause I found the feeling and memory of my school life! I want to take this opportunity to tell all my classmates, you guys really my good friends! If you guys agree, can I have a chance to compose a song for our own class? To those who read my blog, hopefully you all will left comment and respond on here o!

"Stop Your Steps and Let Me Know Your Feeling", friends, this is the message for you;
"The world's longest distance is not when you at east and I'm at west, but we can't feel the existence of both of us when we just face to face to each other!" Yee, this sentence is for you!

没有你上网的日子，第17天，晴：

真的是累人的一天啊！！！同一个原因，还是为了History的事情……至少，有了一些结果……

今天的Majoring Talk终于有机会目睹Tatsun校长本人了。他的言词谈吐真的很了不起啊！严格的对白中，又不失幽默。呵呵！不但如此，校长的演讲真的让我们这些准备选主系的学生起了很大的作用哦！无论如何，今天的最大收获。莫过于可以看到你哦！

你今天的紫色上衣很漂亮，而且让我望了一眼又一眼……但是，我知道你在想些什么。今天听完了AD Talk过后，从你选择后门的举动来看，我知道你在避开我……心里面当然会有些许的失望和伤心，但我知道，这不是我放弃的理由！今天我错过的最大机会，就是没有勇气去对你开口说话。我不懂明天的Field Trip上天会否给我机会，但我告诉自己，就算没有，我也要至少对你点头问好！

你选择了什么Course呢？或许是Advertising吧！虽然我也有兴趣，但我知道，我最想要的，始终都是我的梦想，Digital Animation！各位已经选好科系的朋友们，大家加油吧！还没有选好的，就要谨慎的选择哦！:-)

最后，我要给大家的惊喜就是，我筹备多时的《没有你上网的日子》这首曲子终于有歌词了！意，顾名思义，这首歌是我写给你的。我不懂现在这个年代写歌追女生是否还行得通，但这首歌却是我要表达的内心世界！曲什么时候才有呢？请大家耐心等待吧！:-)

歌词：
《没有你上网的日子》

记得那一天 因为你上线
感觉你在身边 也不再等待黑夜

如果有一天 你不再上线
漫漫长的黑夜 等到花儿都凋谢

对你的爱
就算在隔壁班 也一样隔层纱
为了看你一面
未知数的未来
我还会 一直等待

没有你上网的日子
夕阳投下的影子
斜斜的 暖暖的
思念你看着你的名字

没有你上网的日子
钢琴跳动的音子
动听的 静静的
还会望着你的名字 继续等待

Day Without You Online, Day 17, Sunny:

What a tiring day... Still the same, rushing for History stuffs... At least, have some result...

Today's majoring talk had the opportunity to see our Principal, Mr. Tatsun Hui! He has a very good speeching skill and full of humors in his every sentences. Hehe! Besides that, his talk really helpful to us! However, the biggest thing I got for today is saw you...

The purple colour shirt that you wore today really nice, and caused me always turn my eye on you... But, I know what were you thinking... After listening to AD Talk and you walked to back door had already told me that you were trying to hide from me. However, I know this isn't the reason for me to stop my step. The biggest thing that I regret to do today is didn't have the strength to talk with you. I don't know whether the God still giving me any chance or not on tomorrow's field trip. Anyway, I told myself, if the God not giving me any chance tomorrow, at least I want to have a smile to you!

What course have you chosen? I think is Advertising Design, right? Although I'm interested in it too, but I know what I really want and that's my childhood dream, Digital Animation! To all my friends that have choose their course, everybody Gambateh! To those who still dilemma, must choose carefully o! :-)

Lastly, the surprise that I wish to give you guys is, the song that I compose had already done the lyrics part "Days Without You Online"《没有你上网的日子》。Yee, this song is exclusive compose for you! I don't know whether writing song still can coupe a girl or not in today's world, but this song really my true words that I want to let you understand! When to have the full song? Hopefully you guys can wait for it o! :-)

Lyrics:
"Day Without You Online"
(English translation and sorry for bad translation)

Still remember that day Because you were online
Feel like you just beside me And not waiting for the night

If one day you never online again
A long night that wait until the flower also died of old age

My love to you Even you are at the class next to me
Similar separates by a gauze
To have a view of you And unpredictable future
I will always wait for you

Day without you online
Shadow of the sun set
Is slanting is warming
Think of you and see you name

Day without you online
Flowing of the piano's melody
Is nice Is silent
Still look at your name continue waiting

没有你上网的日子，第16天，晴：

今天很衰哦！！！早上屋子遭人爆窃，不见了手机和几十元，Andy也“花”了20多元买了教训……可悲啊！唉……我现在终于明白手机是我们生活的左右手为什么意思了……对了，我是后付的……

今天下午为了History的事情差点吵架。Zac和Henry, 对不起哦……但说到底，我也只是希望我们的组能够是最好的。说穿了，也只是我的好胜心在做嵩，和面对不断的攻击，也只我会如此的烦躁！大家，对不起……！

对了，补充一下，因为等下要去看戏，所以才会那么早写部落格哦！呵呵！还有就是，我说要给大家的惊喜，不好意思，要等到明天晚上了。或许我的家遭人爆窃也算是一个不经意的惊喜吧！:-)

Day Without You Online, Day 16, Sunny:

Today is a bad day to me!!! My house got robbed and I lost my handphone and RM10+, Andy, my house mate "paid" RM20+ for the lesson... Haiz~ Now only I realized how important is hand phone to our life... Oh ya, my hand phone is postpaid...

Today nearly argued with Zac and Henry because of History's stuff. Really sorry for that, guys... However, I did that as I really wish that our presentation is the best. Frankly saying, all of that because of my attitude that wish to win, plus the unstoppable challenge, and cause me to become very frustrated! Sorry to everybody...

Oh ya, add something here, later going to watch movie, thus tonight has a early blog... Hehe! One more thing, the surprise that I promised to show can't make it tonight and need to be postponed to tomorrow's blog. Sorry o! Well, my house got robbed might be the surprise too! :-)