没有你上网的日子，第25天，晴：

嗯……今天还蛮多烦恼的啊！尤其是触碰到History的事情，真的很让我心烦！或许我还未从上一次的“失败”走出来……History of Art & Design II已经慢慢的成了我的阴影……我很害怕着一个科目，尤其是说到Presentation，我就会不知觉地发抖，心里感到害怕……下午Zac临时开了一个会议，我在那个时候把闷在心里的话都一次过说出来……

最近的烦恼真的很多……！感觉很累……现在的生活，慢慢地被时间控制了，被烦恼控制了……有的时候我会感觉到很懊恼，但是又没有地方让我来吐诉。电话买了一个星期，但是Sim card寄了一个星期却还没到！这里的邮政真的可以去X了啦！！！身边的朋友一个又一个有问题，有的时候我也不懂要如何面对他们……说实在的，Andy有的时候老爱开那些很乱的歌曲或音乐，不然就是重复一首歌几千次，再不然就是开那些什么圣歌……心里一句话，那些圣歌我一手也不觉得好听！我在这里要说出来，是因为我真的忍那些歌很久了……请容许我一个机会在这里哭诉吧……！真的！那些歌只不过是用来歌颂耶稣，我不觉得是什么真正的圣歌。假如你真要听，我有很多朋友可以介绍给你……

仪，很多人问我为什么最近都不写关于你……其实，我是不懂要写些什么。之前（上个星期）有机会碰到你，让我有很多东西写关于你。现在，我也是很想写的，但我真的不懂要写什么。或许，可以让你知道我每一天还是一样思念你。我开始慢慢地不再渴望走在路上可以碰到你，或许，我真的开始接受了“随缘”和希望我们都能够顺其自然。嗯……Wayne，其实我不懂该不该让你继续帮我。说在兄弟份上，有的时候我反而渴望我和仪能够就这样“向左走，向右走”……其实我不是胆小，但，你也懂我的处境。我真的很害怕她会再次生气，那个时候我想我就真的是Game Over了……

有的时候想一想，我真的很后悔。Wayne，你告诉过我她之前和我msn得很快乐，我回想的时候，真的很后悔！我真的不应该那么的冲动！一切的一切都是冲动啊！假如我能够忍着不按电话，那么现在的我也不会那么的痛苦了……对不起！我还是一样！我还是做不到心平气和……

到底我接下来会如何……？我自己也不敢想象了……

Day Without You Online, Day 25, Sunny:

Hmm... Today is the day that frustrating me the most! Especially the thing about History! Well, maybe I'm still couldn't escape from the previous failure~ History of Art & Design II has slowly haunted me, a subject that frightening me... When talk about presentation, I will shiver and scare... Zac, our group leader had on a meeting in today afternoon and I voiced out everything...

Recently I have lots of problems...! Feeling tired... Life nowadays has slowly controlled by time and troubles... Sometimes I feel down and stressful, but no way for me to voice out... Handphone has bought for a week, but sim card still haven't reach! The POS MALAYSIA can go to hell lah!!! Friends around me having trouble accordingly and yet I don't know how to face them... Frankly saying, Andy likes to open those rock musics, or repeat a song in a thousand times, or play those annoying church songs! Honestly, I don't think those church songs are nice! I want to say it here, because I can't stand with the songs anymore! Please allow me to have a change to express my feeling here...! Seriously! Those songs are made to eulogy their God, and I don't feel like is really any church songs. If you really want to listen, I have lots of friends that can introduce for you...

Yee, lots of people ask me why I'm not writing about you recently... Well, I don't know what to write actually... Before that (last week) I had lots of chances to meed with you, thus I have tons of things to write about you. Now, I want to write too, but I really don't know what to write. Maybe I can let you know that I miss you everyday. I started not to hope to saw you by the roadside. Well, maybe I started to accept "随缘" and hope we two can let the God decide everything. Hmm... Wayne, actually I don't know whether you should continue help me or not. As buddy, sometimes I wish that Yee and I can "one to left, one to right"... Actually I'm not a coward, but, you know my situation. I really scare that I will cause she angry one more time, and I really Game Over at that time...

Sometimes when think back, I really regret. Wayne, you told me that she was very happy to chat with me before in MSN... I shouldn't be so rush! Everything caused by impulse ah! If I can endure and not to press the phone, and I wouldn't be so suffer... Sorry! I'm still the same! I can't make myself into a calm person...

What will happen next...? I can't imagine...